That night I drove to Griffiths Observatory to do an LA site-seeing-ish-thing, and I did some thinking about the possible move. I pondered and prayed and felt pretty good about it. It was beautiful up there to be sure. I was thinking about people, reputations, status, and places... and the outstanding thought of the moment was:
PEOPLE ARE MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAN PLACES OR THINGS. PLACES AND THINGS DON'T MATTER AT ALL.
You'll imagine this was a useful thought when I walked back to my rental car and cursed out loud seeing that the passenger window had been smashed in and my bag - with my laptop, external hard drive, and my journal - was gone.
After reporting the incident and filling out a lot of paper work I cried on the phone to my patient Mama as I drove the car back. I hate that I cry, but it really helps. Other than that one time I've been in pretty good spirits about it. Except when I went to purchase a new laptop - I had a hard time being excited because I missed the original. It felt really backward walking out of the apple store with a new purchase and a grimace.
The next day was better. I almost didn't go to the auditions I'd planned on, toting the excuse that the night previous had been so traumatic. But the amazing friend I was staying with gave me this great piece of advice that I'll never forget:
"I think you should go, just based on the principle of doing hard things"
And that's the reason she's my friend. I'm hoping to live with her when I move. She's amazing.
The next day my auditions went really well. In my Disney Dance audition, I got cut for typing, but I was nailing triples, which is a first for me in an audition setting. It's also the first time I've ever sported a bare-midriff in an audition. Which I felt good about considering it was for The Little Mermaid and three years ago I never would have felt that confident about my body.
It was an exciting trip- despite my stuff getting stolen. I came home feeling oblivious to some of the things I've been struggling with here. I was just excited for the future and the possibility of moving forward. Now I just need to save money.. and a lot of it. So if you're reading this, you could do me a huge favor by listening to my music on Spotify, buying it on Itunes... or you could just give me money - wink* wink*.
Next up... Youtube videos, a Christmas party, and recording an album this winter... God willing.